Tear for the day

I realized today that I have less then a month left of maternity leave. I realized that I will miss my kids so much......I realized that I am really actually very sad about leaving my kids even if they are going to be watched over by the most amazing lady in the world. So I sat and cried a little (I mean a lot). I am so glad I have the option to work as we are looking at almost a year of Jason not having a job. I am very thankful for my job and always will be. On the other hand I am hurting inside a bit thinking about not being able to be home with my kids. I know my true calling is at home, that is what I should be doing and I know there will be an opportunity in the future for me to be home with my kids. I am trying to find my place. Trying to figure out who I am and how I fit into this world. So much has changed in my life over the last few months being home. I feel like a different person. So for today this post will be a simple yet sad one as I try to let all these bottled up feelings out.